Imagine for a moment you were a ten year old little girl. Your mind is full of silly things from television and somehow you bump into an old episode of The Bill Cosby show and you laugh and have a fun time and you sing along and dance and it’s a great fun adventure. Along comes your big sister, and she’s hot as hell, guys love her, they’re always hanging around your porch with their sleek cars, some of them quite fancy, some are even called odd names like Lambo, though unrelated to lamb chops. So your big sis sees you watching The Bill Cosby show and makes a comment that never leaves your mind. She says “Don’t watch that rapist! Turn it off or I will kill you!”. Like a good little girl, you turn it off, apologize and wonder why she is so angry. Your big sis likes to toss the word “rapist” around like it is salt’n’ pepper at the dinner table. So you do not think too much of it.
But the next time you wish to watch The Bill Cosby show you feel not so happy and you do not know why. Somehow what she said, however long ago and for whatever reason, it matters more than anything the funny man on the television ever said or made you feel. So you do not ask your mother or father due to how bad you feel, and instead you turn to the Internet and read up on some news. Your dad lets you surf while he sits behind watching you and you ask to read the news and he shows you the magical CNN website. For fun you ask if there are any news on a TV show? And he shows you the media section, entertainment, so you search for “Bill Cosby”. And as he looked away for a brief moment you read and discover in the headlines that Bill Cosby, your new favourite funny star is suddenly an actual rapist, accused and sentenced to years in prison for actually raping women. Turns out your big sis was not lying as usual, and wasn’t just swearing and rebelling with big words the big bad big men use when they’re angry. Turns out your big sis actually said something useful, something that could save your life. As her little sister you did not know what rape really was but it did not sound so wonderful, given her affect and angry face that she makes, oh so often and yet not so often. You read quickly before your dad looks back from his cell phone, and he says “Honey, don’t read that, find something else...”, and so ends another surfing session with you reading about oceans, avalanches and volcanoes.
Turns out a woman reported Bill Cosby raped her decades ago, which is many many moons ago, so long ago you were not even born yet. And then when his life was more or less destroyed, many other women came forward, they added to the pile of hate, and said the exact same things as the first woman did but with a few minute details changed. Obviously it all did not happen in the same room and on the same day and in the same way, but it was the same man who did the same bad thing to the same opposite gendered person. It was again using drugs and again using physical force that only a stronger individual could use - and you know men are stronger, after all your brother runs way way faster than even your big sis when the storms come and the rains from nowhere hit the fields. But this thing Bill Cosby did makes you not want to ever watch his fun little show. In fact, you now feel angry that you ever even laughed and wish to lie to yourself that it is still okay to watch The Bill Cosby show in secret without your big sis noticing. But inside you feel so wrong, how could he possibly do that to a woman while having such a beautiful happy family on the TV? Maybe it is not all like it is on TV? Then again, a computer is just a television, is it not? One you as a ten year old are controlling with a remote control type of device, it just has more buttons than the cable remote, doesn’t it? On the cable remote you can push a bunch of numbers, but on the laptop, you can push almost a hundred keys. And if you can push that many keys, so can those who control video cameras. And if you can change The Bill Cosby show into Star Trek, maybe with the hundred keys remote control you can change Bill Cosby from rapist into ravist. Someone whom dances, as Google suggested. And maybe he did not drug them, maybe it was a party and the women just, sort of, changed their minds about what happened the next morning? How could anyone know what happened before you were born? You at the age of ten do not know what truly happened five years ago, let alone before you were even born. But now they are saying this and that happened, and many are agreeing it was similar and so forth? What if you came forward as a ten year old and said Bill Cosby raped you five years ago and became as popular as him and had your own show, too? What if you became The Cosby Girl? How many more boys would you have than your big sis? Imagine your own entire TV show about you as a ten year old survivor of rape dealing with the aftermath (thank you Discovery TV) of enduring a big mean black man when you were five as a fan of The Bill Cosby show, and the fame, fortune, and love and Lambos, just for you? Oh life could be so grand, couldn’t it? Maybe I could even be BFFs with the big sis you think to yourself, and maybe she won’t yell at me, punch me and tell me mean things when I talk to my boyfriends at school and do homework together? Maybe she won’t make fun of us sitting and playing cards? I really think she is jealous sometimes. But if I had my own show, the ten year old thinks, I, too, could be a big sister.
Did Bill Cosby rape anyone? Did the little girl get raped? We can read much online. But we can not go back to the time when Bill Cosby lived in the dates specified on the trial. Maybe he was not even in the country? What if he is a spy and was in North Korea and none of you know? A million things are possible dear friends, and your world view of men vs women is simply too restrictive. But let me tell you of another restrictive world view. It is called paranoia. And many women suffer from it. I was born almost blind and have rather weird eyes. Many women look away from my eyes and even put a hand between their eyes and mine and look away if we ever make eye contact. This is so disrespectful and yet I have become used to it. In fact, my eyes make it more unique than minorities in many places. And now at the age of forty I have never had a single girlfriend yet, because most women judge men based on how our eyes move during conversations. Paranoia makes women want to read eye movements as they believe in magical ideas about what an eye movement does reveal about truth and lie - and it doesn’t have anything to do with it at all, it really does not. If you cling to this idea, it is folklore, sorry ladies. In fact, with people such as me, this explains why no woman ever in my entire life dated me let alone wished to be my friend. If you suffer from this Eye Reading Syndrome, it usually means you have your own internal compass for truth and you aren’t willing to let go of it. If he looks down and to the right he cheated on me. If he looks up and to the left he loves me but is bored. Many NLP variants exist, but you see, my eyes look randomly and each in its own direction. So you can’t figure it out and so women whom are paranoid feel uneasy about conversations as they can not be the ones whom interpret trust. If I cheat on a woman she can never figure it out, nor ever know if I am telling the truth. So for this reason women avoid men like me, and it is a pretty cruel thing when you consider it. You ladies judged me all my life by my disability making the other 99% of my body worthless. And that is worse than anything Bill Cosby was accused of doing to any of you, for his supposed crime lasted minutes or hours. I am now forty. Do you understand? It means you ladies made me waste my best youngest years without ever taking me to an IMAX movie, and I have low vision. It means you judged me by my disability so severely as worthless that I never made love to anyone I could call a girlfriend when I was in all my 20s, 30s, or high school days. Put yourselves into those shoes and ask if at the age of 40, given all your talents, dreams, and wishes, what would you think of the other gender, if they dated and loved all but you? Would you love yourselves and others then? Because I still am kind and peaceful. But this begs entirely another question.
Bill Cosby was judged by a panel of his peers or whatever weird custom Americans use. But none of that is accurate nor unbiased no matter how much work is done in making it unbiased and scientific. Simply put - still to this day men work long hours and women spend time raising children. As such all the jurors were raised mostly by females, and thus are biased to vote in the favour of women. So it was not a fair trial simply from that one perspective. Many others are present rendering the entire verdict irrelevant. Take for example if he was found innocent and yet ten or twenty victims claimed he raped them. How would the entire female community react and how might they treat other men who are unrelated to this crime? Protests happen in Canada for issues in Iran, as people wave flags with green around major city centres. Would not women abstain from sex with their husbands claiming solidarity with victims? In the interests of the human species existing, the judges have to and the jurors have to weight these issues as well as actual evidence and so a mere sexual accusation is usually in the woman’s side already as otherwise there would be havoc. This is now not really a trial anymore based on this fact, but is rather a hostage negotiation. And hostages can be married men, or those in the womb for nine months. So technically speaking a legal system of even America can never rule honestly in terms of sexual harassments, and mostly as related to women being the victims. This may sound bigoted of me to state but it is a fact nonetheless. If you as a woman have the power for nine months to abort anyone’s child, then any ruling upsetting you would result in loss of future generations. That is a hostage situation. Many will say no woman would do that - but then I would argue since Canada burned down the White House in the 1800s, and since we have the most multicultural connections, 9/11 was a Canada-made job and we set up middle-Eastern people as they weren’t as black as the slaves down south were so it was easy to get away with. What I am saying is that every middle-Eastern person I knew was kind and generous in Canada, so if you can not believe a woman would hold life itself as hostage and her husband’s romancing with her as a means of winning political points, then I can not believe at all that any middle-Eastern person would ever blow up anything in America. Middle-Eastern people gave me shelter, cooked me meals, drove me to fun places, did business with me, invited me into their homes and hearts and I am to believe some part of them is cruel? If so, believe that women are hostage takers and negotiators in return please. And for that reason any sexually based trial in America is forever biased in the favour of women and therefore eternally unfair and unjust. So the decision about Bill Cosby being guilty and all that, is not a fair one. Whether it is just and valid not many can actually state. Those of you arguing feverishly over this and that evidence and procedural point might as well sign up for law school as that is all you are debating, semantics. None of you were in any rooms with any of those women whom say any of those things having happened and neither am I. Not for a moment am I suggesting that rape does not exist. Nor am I suggesting that 9/11 did not occur - though as blind as I am and as disrespectful as you all are to us disabled people, I have never in my three decades here traveled outside of TO, so for all I know the Twin Towers still exist. What I am however suggesting, is simply put, I read these trials for fun, the same way I read about Quantum Theory from Star Trek canon. It is just relative fodder. Maybe someone got hurt, and maybe Bill Cosby is the actual rape victim. Sometimes the guilty flip around whom did what to whom, as in the bully in the school yard may present the lunch money theft as the victim stealing from him. It does kind of make sense for a rich man to have been drugged and then slept with against his wishes by the women who were golddiggers wishing to break apart his family and career, does it not ladies? Or maybe they wanted to steal his sperm and claim he was the daddy? There are a billion situations that could result in sexual and drug related incidents between two people and having a limited imagination is what causes conflict and aggression and hatred. But I was not there and I do not know is my version. However, I was there all my 20s and 30s and saw not one woman ever, in my entire life, asking me for my phone number. That makes me a bit on the Bill Cosby side, darlings. Because I know when I make something and put all my energy into it, I do not want to risk ruining it for all the world. And The Bill Cosby show was a lot of effort. As is the reputation of the Jell-O brand.
Now imagine if Bill Cosby honestly did rape women. Let’s say he is a serial rapist, has a drug habit and sometimes molests even little girls and not just black ones. Let’s assume all these evil things. And he is now in prison. What happens next? Obviously there will be polarized people. Some on his and some on hers. And this is how feminism will decide whom gets a ride on the rollercoaster of fun of splashworks and whom, like me, sits on the sidelines eating a hot dog and squeezing the bun pieces and feeding the pigeons as I always do while the rest of you have fun. If you are pushed into power circles, as many beautiful women are and as many rich men are, you are obviously polarized and will surround yourself mostly with like-minded fools, err, I mean friends. Women who think Cosby is a rapist will mostly talk to women who believe the same so there are less conflicts in the click. Men who think he is innocent will keep their opinions of such beliefs to their “little boys clubs” as feminism calls them. When these men and women interact and should they ever chat about these topics, they will forever dodge, reflect, and mirror things out of a conflict if they wish to be with each other, if they wish to make love and not war. It’s hard making love if you are at war, believe me. All the women in Canada are at war with not being able to look me in the eyes and smile so I have, honestly, not even hugged a woman since my best friend’s girlfriend when I was in high school in the ‘90s. That is how much at war women are with us disabled men. As if it is my fault my own genetics raped me, eh ladies? Who’s now the hater sisters of ya-ya pink pants? The sad part is, I love women very much and take the time out of my busy schedule to make them laugh and smile and have fun even though I have never asked one out and they never wish to ask me out. You see, my biggest love in life is seeing people smiling and happy. Sometimes I just say something to a woman just to see that her day was brightened. But believe it or not, if I do not approach a female in Toronto, never does a woman show curiosity at what a disabled man with weird eyes looks like when he is smiling happily - it has never happened at least as of the third month of my 40th year on this planet with the rest of you all. So if women believed Mr. Cosby was a rapist, and many men argued with them, they might want to prove a point and set things straight. After all, we as victims do, don’t we ladies? I am a victim of your anti-disabled hatred, and you are victims of stronger aggressive men. And yet I can’t withhold any favours, I can’t fight any of you, I can’t use violence, I can’t sue you for not dating me, all I can do is remain patient and age every day and be uglier and uglier as we all are uglier and uglier as we age every day a little bit more.
Proving a point requires strength and weapons. When I want to prove that one plus one equals two, my weapon could be two apples. Or two fingers. Or two Jell-O boxes. But with one apple I can not. Without any objects I can not. I can not easily teach you that two plus two is four without some physical realm entity demonstrating it. Two sounds, two breaths, two pinpricks, two touches, two this, two that, something has to be two and something else has to be the other two. And then you notice together it is four. Without this I can not prove my point. Similarly, if I use psychological concepts in the Cosby case, I can prove it to you as long as my apples are bigger than your apple knives. If I show you two apples but you cut them to size, suddenly it’s not one plus one equalling two, but it now equals twenty tiny pieces and that doesn’t work. I can probably chop up every Cosby detail and evidence into a million pieces that do not add up when looked at with a stern and analytical mind. If you can not, you need to study way harder life itself. Just the way it is easy to understand why among three million females in Toronto alone not one thought me worthy of ever inviting me to a birthday party. I never asked a woman why not, yet I know the answer. Believe me, it has nothing to do with my attitude, personality, or any other aspect of me, for if you did not start a conversation you would not know any of those details either. And it better not be my choice of Japanese t-shirts, or I swear... Oh look a male threatening women. Will you sue me down the road for this, too? As a woman no doubt said that Cosby had an angry streak based on some party event, or some rumour, or some blog, or some such circumstance. Do you see my point yet your honourable womanses? But if a woman felt in her heart of hearts that Mr. Bill Cosby, whom she never met, was truly a rapist based on black and white text she read on some website and nothing else, and she wanted the whole world to believe these things, and if men simply did not get it, would it be a problem? Well, if the men are agreeing that a rapist is innocent, then they might be rapists themselves, and nobody wants to be raped, right sisters? I have two sisters, and I do not want them harmed ever, let alone by me when they’re being mean, which is like always. The point I am making is, if women believe men are siding with an actual rapist, they will feel afraid and fearful and so they must fight back. If beasts are roaming in packs, we must kill these beasts, right witches?! So what if we started putting drugs into Jell-O containers in stores? Hear me out now, although it may seem like it makes no sense. If people are buying Jell-O, despite Bill Cosby being found guilty, does that mean they are financially encouraging rape? If Bill Cosby made sneakers, and called them Cindy, and men said “I can’t wait to get into Cindy, she feels so tight” and laughed after his rape conviction, wouldn’t that be a hint that they want to rape women? So how do women fight this? They would want to shut down the Cindy shoe store. Similarly, if people are funding the Jell-O company, made more famous by Bill Cosby advertisements, that somehow indirectly means they are funding rapists such as Bill Cosby was made out to be by the American legal system. And women can not prevent all men and others from purchasing any product on store shelves. And they can not really sue the government, as it is after all Jell-O. But they can boycott it and never, ever, not even once, buy it for their families, and can withhold it from their children. So Jell-O suddenly starts to lose profits. And this is bigotry, but it is also their right, their natural right, to choose whatever products their family is representing and funding in the world. If I hate Germany I may buy Nike and not Adidas. If I hate America I may buy a Lambourghini and never a Mustang. But being who I am I hate nobody for these are merely examples. The thing though is, despite this drop in Jell-O sales, men whom believe in honour of the old generation may buy Jell-O en masse as a political statement. And this is where inter-gender warfare becomes an issue. So women might start putting drugs into Jell-O sold on actual store shelves. It does not matter how it is accomplished, what matters is the logic.
Rapists and other mental crimes resulting in such horrific injuries of a person, whether mental or physical, are an act of cruelty. As such one has a right to defend oneself. Self-defence is never illegal and a woman might argue if she kills a man during rape that it is justified. So if they can put Jell-O packets on store shelves that have psychiatric pills and powders, then they are technically defending their gender from men who are siding with a killer by buying his product. And so these men are eating Jell-O more and more thinking they are protesting, but do not know symptoms of psychiatric poisoning or of symptoms when those powders and medicinal ingredients are administered. And just like wrongly administered Aspirin can wear down the stomach lining and cause stomach bleeding, wrongly administered psychiatric pills can actually harm the brain. So perhaps it may be possible for Jell-O laced with drugs to turn normal men into actual rapists. And in there we now have what women were claiming all along. Men are rapists. And now these men when they rape, because of the pills from Jell-O that ruined their minds, the statistics of rapists increase, and reflect a gender disparity. Women do not rape, only men do. Suddenly it is true. All because of one legal case. But there is a catch, the actual interpretation of these deep data are wrong. For every male rapist in prison or in a psych ward due to this scenario is actual a data point of females raping men. Only this time it is not a physical nor a sexual rape, but a medical rape or a mental medical rape. So while it is true that Jell-O laced with psychiatric powder or other toxic substance ruined men’s brains, and maybe they can not function in general population (the wild), the quantity of crimes they committed are an indicator of the female hatred that poisoned the Jell-O itself. Of course, this is all speculation and theory, please understand. I do not hate Jell-O, nor do I hate Bill Cosby, nor feminism. I do not hate North Korea, nor America, nor Canada. But I do hate that my best years, my youngest years, when I had hair and was way, way, way more attractive, were spent without a single one night stand, a single concert, or a single movie date with any of you stunningly amazing women. And you all should hate it, whether you are female, gay, bi, or asexual or even an alien. The whole world should hate that fact, because everyone deserves to go on a date in high school, and at least a few times before they are forty. Everyone, even Bill Cosby the rapist.
What is my personal stance on the issue as far as Mr. Bill Cosby is concerned? I can only answer it in a rather rude manner. If it were possible, I would make love to every woman I ever saw with my low vision eyes - you are all that beautiful and that fun to chat with. And I feel it a crime that I only have one penis. Furthermore, I think it is ridiculous that there is only twenty four hours in a day and we must work sixteen of those hours leaving only an hour here and there for love making. If it were up to me, I would have made the world vastly differently. So I do believe that celebrities can take advantage of anyone, and not just women. Why have no men come forward claiming Bill Cosby raped them, too? Is it because those accusing Mr. Cosby are Christians who do not comprehend just how many bisexuals exist in this world? How come there aren’t any of those types of accusations going around at all? When was the last time a man accused a male celebrity of rape? Do you yet see my point? There are a million apple pieces missing that none of you considered before you laced Jell-O with your toxic powder. If I was a billionaire, women would maybe flock to me and I’d need body guards. Maybe they wouldn’t, and I’d still be just as lonely writing this. After all, having money wouldn’t change my disability would it? Nothing can and nothing will - in fact it can only get worse for me. Someone angry might poke my eyes out, or I might go blind naturally. But nobody can undo my lonely 40 years. And nobody can undo the damage now done to Bill Cosby. If he raped them, that’s terrible. If he didn’t, he’s now the rape victim and it’s terrible. Either way, now it is terrible. And watching The Bill Cosby will never make that ten year old smile ever again. That is the end result of what you all accomplished. Even if that ten year old girl never searched on Google and even if he wasn’t even accused and did not rape anyone, her big sister’s comment, crude as it was, forever ruined her fun. Be careful with each other my friends. You only got each other once in your lives. Just like I only had my youth once, and now it’s gone. I hope Mr. Cosby did not rape anyone, I really do, because I don’t know.
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